It's another day.
Woke up, brushed my teeth, jump and hop around a little, and it's time for study.
I'm so afraid; so afraid of failing my papers.
I'm afraid of failures.
Maybe it's because I've failed once in my life, and almost everybody blames me, points their fingers at me, pours all fault at me. And nobody remember that I am a human and I need some encouragement.

I know, I am stressing myself up.
But what can i do?

HELLO PEOPLE!

Let bygone be bygone. =)

I woke up with fainting spells, and feeling so weak.
My face is numb, and it's too tired to smile.
It's so cold out there, but the sun is shinning bright.

I think I need my Melts from McDonalds.

Never in my life, i have felt myself being such a fucking big fool before.
I can't sleep. And i know that I have to let it out before i can do anything else.
I couldn't tell you, cuz it will cause another big round of dumb argument.
I can only write it down.

You said that I never think in your shoes. But it's the other way round.
If i never think in your shoes, then why did i gave it up the other time, thinking that by doing so, you'll feel more secured?
Now, I'm just asking for something similar, and you can't do it.
You compared it to another case that is totally different.
I've explained it so so so many times, and it just shows that you never understand my stand even when you claim that you did.
Isn't it just comparing for the sake of comparing?
I really see no point in continuing to point out where I'm coming from.
Seriously.
I just want to feel more secured, especially with your past.
I am someone who needs security more than anyone else.
Is it wrong?
Isn't giving the other party a sense of security important?
I felt so insignificant. I felt so minor, so minor that I am not worth giving up something that is so much smaller for.
I believe that what i gave up for the sake of you in the past is more prominant and mean more to me than what you refused to give up for the sake of me.
Sometimes, love just ain't enough for things to work.
You never fail to bring out things like "so this just shows how much you love me".. "is this what you call love".. hais.
Seriously, seriously. I should be asking you that.
Love does not make everything goes smoothly.
Love can't overcome everything. It's hard core fact.
Do you not know?
Life is never a fairytale..
I'm really really hurt.
All i ask for is security. What i get in return is words being hurled at me.
I am mean. I am unreasonable.
What's more?
I know i know.
I AM mean. I AM unreasonable.
okay?
I know.
I also know that I am the one who can't stop my tears even till now.
I know everything. You don't.
You have no idea how hurtful it is, those words you've said and those that's totally different but you tried comparing, those that you tried to prove that you're right and i'm crap, I'm mean, I'm unreasonable..
fucking mean and unreasonable.
I KNOW.
And you don't....

I am really happy recently, cuz for my Marketing, Economics and Management, I have been getting As for all my individual assignments, group projects and tests, except for one Economics individual essay that I have no idea what grade I've gotten.
If for my final exams, I manage to get As, whee!
Then I've scored 3 As.
And according to my lecturer, they'll give you a medal if you score 6 As.
That's my aim.
Hee.

I'm feeling so much better at MIS.
=)

Look at the crazy boy behind me.

Guess what is that.



Know what is that?
It's my current fav.

Cinnamon Melts!!!
From McDonalds if you have no idea.

Do you know that I'm a cinnamon lover? It's damn nice!
If you love churros, you'll love this even more!
Just like the name, it melts in your mouth. And the sweetness is just so fine.
Not too sweet. Just nice.
Oh my oh my.
How i wish i have one right in front of me now!

Yums.... xD

Weekend is coming, and I'm looking forward to it though i have no idea why.
No where to go too.
But I'm still looking forward to it.

At last! FINALLY!
I completed my assignmentssssssssssssssssssssss!
Yoyoyo! finally yo!

Haha.

But what's awaiting me is exams.
=((((((



Photos at random.

Can you see the round rainbow?
I'm amazed by it.
It's at night for your info.

On the way to Bugis.

My boy.

And cousins!

This, is a funny boy. Sometimes crazy.

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you!!!!!

Fuck you la stupid Mozilla.
GRRRRRRRRR.
YOU CRASH ON ME AGAIN, ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M TYPING THIS,
I GONNA
GONNA
GONNA

THROW YOU OUT...
err..

OF MY LAPTOP LA!
You're so dumb so dumb so dumb!



I HATE YOU!
*Screaming like the girl in the InSing.com commercial when the boy sends her a wrath.*

People, what do you want to see yourself as, in 5 years?

I have two choices.

First:
Have my own shop, doesn't matter if it's small.
Have a car, or at least, a license.
My own apartment, living happily with my boy and nobody else.
&
Get a UK degree. =D

or I have a second choice:

Dead.
xD

I'm so uncertain about my future. =( That's a bad thing.
I have some goals now and I'm working towards that. Hope it will work out well and shine my future a little.

And i hope in 10 years time, I'll be in London, happily strolling down the streets feeling joyous.
HAHA.
How happy and merry!



* dream dream dream!*